I am doing really bad. I've only been tapering for 4 days or so, so I don't know how it's going to go. I am also in a very dark place, wanting so badly to leave this world, but I can't because of my mother. She doesn't have anyone else. I don't know if I've had side effects because although I feel worse, I'm also lowering the Mirtazapene and have switched from Ativan to Klonopin, so I'm not sure if it may be that. I am in such a mess on these meds, and our state has a shortage of mental care professionals, so I have to see a resident fresh out of school. I've had a psychiatrist and a therapist give up on me. The new therapist doesn't know how to help it seems. I am so scared. Is there a good chance that your husband will get better? I know so well how hard it is to be there for somebody when you are not alright yourself.