@lynguist- I'm so sorry to hear how depressed you are. I was very depressed after the surgery. It's a very common symptom after surgery. And I can understand feeling numb, mentally. This is the best time to go to counseling when you care the least.

It's excellent news that your scans are stable. It's a big deal to go through anticipation, the scans and all other tests and then the big day comes and there is surgery. Then a stay in the hospital and then home, and boom! No personal attention and you have to be by yourself without all the attention and oohs and ahs. It's tough. Then at home, you think about your own life, your own survival and other life questions. It's almost impossible not to stop caring.

I'm glad that you are continue your eating disorder group and women's group. Perhaps you can discuss this with them and let them help you break your dam so that you can move on. What do you think?

Merry