Had my 1st session today and I had a reaction I didn't expect. They had to sit me on a lift and when the therapist started lowering it I started getting scared... when the water covered my legs she stopped because I started having a panic attack. She tried going a little lower and I couldn't breathe. I was holding onto the lift pole so hard my hands hurt.
She stood in the pool alongside me for a couple minutes then raised me up and when I got above the water line I could breathe again. I had a hard time walking back to the locker room... had to walk alongside the pool and it terrified me... I was so off balance... getting dressed was hard and trying to put my walker in the car was almost impossible. I finally got it in and got a crying jag in the parking lot. I truly don't think I can do this. Tonight my back pain is worse than normal and I keep reliving the fear I felt and crying. Not sure if I will be able to get into bed... things seem so hopeless right now. My therapist was very concerned and patient with me but I'm not sure if I can go thru that again.