I'm very sorry! Everyone in this group has been where you are at some level.
I was diagnosed in Feb of this year at age 43. I immediately thought I was going to die (in like months), especially since the thought of needing chemo felt like enough to kill me. I knew nothing about BC. I was so emotional. Spent more of my days crying vs not. I felt so alone and really wished I could talk to someone who understood my feelings. All I could think about was " I have cancer". All the emotions made me exhausted and I slept alot.

After I was diagnosed and assigned a nurse navigator, who made all my apts, and he would say often that my "journey " would be different than others and I would have options. I had no idea what that meant until I started going to apts. And it's so true, people's journeys can be very different. This can confusing to someone new in this group, but down the road, if you are faced w a decision to make on a path to chose, you could ask here if anyone had this same decision to make and gain insight.
I didn't find this group until after my double mastectomy, but wish I found it much sooner. I have Invasive Lobular and Ductal Carcinoma, stage 1a.
I am in my " final steps" as I have started long term meds and just had my ovaries removed yesterday.

This group is great, but I hope you find someone to connect w so you build a relationship w someone who " gets it". Feel free to message anyone in this group who you feel might be this person to you.
I have developed a great friendship w someone I meant through this group and it has helped my walk tremendously.