Life after death

Thank you.

My wife had a NDE when she was 28. It was life transforming for her. I have had mystical experiences that lasted mere seconds. There were maybe only a handful throughout many decades. There is something about that mystery which I call "Holy" that has moved me for the better part of my 79 years of living. I find it difficult to talk about this mystery and yet it is what makes my life rich and upbeat most of the time. No stranger to depression or impaired mobility, still I am full of curiosity about a wide range of topics, happy but concerned for my children and grandkids, and taking care of my health-compromised wife as best I can. The beauty of faith is rugged as much as it is comforting. Can't explain it but I'm grateful to be alive.

There are events that are life changing and make us question the very existence of what we always had taken for granted leaving us profoundly humanized. It is a quite a process to journey through those tough times. It shouldn't be hurried. You can find your way when you let your inner virtuous strength be your steady guide. You know what is good, what is true, what is right. Listen to the honesty within you for the way. The way that you find will be truly yours, because you travelled it. Life is a journey.

A great writer, after the irreplaceable loss of his brother, wrote "The things which I have seen I can see no more!". He was alluding to loss of happiness, loss of innocence, loss of faith in the natural order of things. It is not uncommon for that to happen. The journey from early to later years includes unwanted traumas, which we should take all the proper time to deal with.

If your body hurts, think about all the good that it has done. If your spirit weakens. think about all the things that you are grateful for. If a dear one is gone, close your eyes and remember them smiling during happy times.

Wherever and however you now journey, remember "This above all: to thine own self be true".

Hi. Just FYI. The Hebrew Bible is also called the Old or First Testament. The so-called 'Christian' Bible is the Old/First Testament PLUS what was written following the birth and death/resurrection of Jesus Christ (Yeshua), called the New/Second Testament The "Christian" (Protestant) Bible INCLUDES the Hebrew Bible but continues with the continued Word of G-d, written shortly after the Time of Yeshua/Jesus. The Book of Esther is included in all (Protestant) 'Christian' Bibles.
As for Rabbinic commentary, that is supplemental. The Bible speaks for itself, and to all. Your example of an eye for an eye was explained to me as meaning equal punishment, and no more. It means justice only. More punishment would be vengeance, and that is reserve only for Adonai. I was raised US Orthodox Jewish. At age 31 I encountered The Jewish Jesus. I am still Hebrew Jewish with a faith in Messiah. I didn't change religions. But I'm catagorized now as 'Christian' bc I believe in the one called Jesus. I'm also a lifelong student of the Bible and a Bible Institute graduate. I have a personal relationship with G-d. Truth is something you have to find for yourself. I learned that you can't know about the 'Christian' Bible unless you read it. There is only one 'version,' but there are several translations. Some reflect the original G-d dictated/inspired Words better then others but the message is consistent throughout. Including the continuum of the Old/First and New/Second. The Hebrew Old/First Testament has never been 'revised!' Every ancient scroll found in 1947 proved the Hebrew Testament was unchanged from the original writing. And never will be changed. The Second (New) Testament had been retranslated many times but still is consistent in message. Facts have not been changed. Only presentation has.
Enjoy your reading. I love the Psalms too. Shalom.

I have this same struggle. It is agonizing. I just end up bursting into tears! I so feel your grief darling 💔