I had an intense NDE when I was 21 and in the ICU with swine flu. I had no idea what was going on, and it took me years to get some context--I saw light pour out of a gate, pov/soul leave body etc. I also didn't want to return and felt I was violently tugged back. However, I think that what I experiences was dying, not death. And I wasn't clinically dead, like some folks. So I have absolutely no belief in activities or consciousness after death. However, this did set me on a journey of almost 50 years of exploring spirituality, religion, ethics, service, and more. So I'm essentially grateful, despite a life time of chronic pain, impaired walking, and lost pulmonary function. The virus destroyed a lot. And I will say I don't fear death much in the usual sense, or value life at all costs. This has completely influenced my cancer treatment decisions. I have done only moderate treatments and am not "fighting" my cancer emotionally. An awareness of death has given me guidelines as to how to live. But I still find it totally mysterious.