Hi Wendi!! I’m sorry I forgot to directly answer your question. Yes, it is absolutely normal to feel like you would’ve been better off dead. I felt the same way, and after about the fourth time being severely septic, and in the ICU, I even begged God to take me!! Recovery from being severely septic, having bilateral pneumonia, even being in the ICU; are all very understandable reasons to feel down, depressed, and desperate! I totally went through that for about nine months after my last hospitalization in June 2022. You are normal honey, and you will get through this! I hope and pray you got my comment prior to this outlining the things I did to help myself. Post Sepsis and post ICU are hard for other people to understand. In my case, especially my children and husband; I think they were very supportive through my rehabilitation each time I got out of the hospital. But once I kept going back in with the same thing and coming out having to do the same rehab… I think they just got used to it and even felt like I should do something to help myself to stop from being sick all the time. They were used to me racing around all the time. I was extremely OCD about my children, my home and my job; so losing all of it made me feel as you described! I hope by now that you are feeling 100% better! I lost sight of this website for a year. I simply didn’t remember any such website due to the damage to my cerebellum. When it came Across my email today, I tapped on it, and yours was the first I read. I somehow don’t think that was an accident; as it reminded me that there are still people out there who may need my support! I hope this comment finds you much better, and With a whole new adjusted life that you’re happy to live! Peace and love!! 🫶🏼🌹🫶🏼🌹