Hi If it's any consolation it's been 30yrs since I had cancer, treatments etc. Although I have ongoing issues (radiation damage to bowel) I have had ongoing fears daily. With every twinge or sore body part, I think , has it come back?? This is a normal fear. Some people seem to be able to let it go but some of us can't. Maybe if you have a great GP or good friend to talk to. Sometimes once you actually say your fears out loud you may feel your burden lift. We as survivors need to move forward, although never easy, but we do have a 2nd chance here. So try to find a charitable friend ok?? Or I am here to if you need. Take care Donna from Australia