Thank you for sharing. I’ve not figured out how to compartmentalize any if this. Maybe it’s too soon to expect much. The physical in all of this was the easy part. The fear is the worst part. I hadn’t realized until recently how much I had benefited from the support of the therapists during radiation and now that is ending. One of the biggest fears if that of no longer doing anything proactively to prevent a recurrence . My final brachytherapy is Tuesday and then it’s up to me to monitor fir signs and symptoms . Yes I do have follow ups with mds but these past months I’ve just needed to show up fir appointments and pretty much do as everyone said as they were keeping track of everything. Now it’s up to me. See my gyn Onc in September and hoping I get more info on plans going forward I’ve realized how much I’ve been holding in these months so as to not worry others. I can’t explain why sometimes I just want to cry so I’ve held all of it in and now it’s slowly escaping. I’ve tried to explain my fears but am told I should be happy the treatments are over - and I am but still scared. Thanks for listening (or reading!)