@thisismarilynb Please understand there is no timeline for grief. Each person has their own journey in this. Perhaps finding something you can do for others might ease some of your sadness. Reading a book out loud to someone who cannot see well enough? Doing some minor shopping for someone who cannot get out very much? Take some flowers to a neighbor "just because". Start with something small, not something you make a verbal commitment ahead of time, not expected, just spur-of-the-moment to bring a smile to you inside. Do you think you might be interested in trying this?
Ginger