Morning Lagrange~
Your thread caught my eye. I'm sure it will also resonate with many more who are suffering from the pain of loss.
The love of my life, for over 47 years passed away in 2021. My beloved son also passed in 2017..that's also a loss that never finds peace within my soul.

I totally get what you wrote about our loved ones 'being there' for us in so many ways. As low as my heart can sink, at times..I do also get the rewards of 'them' coming back to me. About a week after my son died..I was driving and all of a sudden he was sitting right next to me and had his hand casually on my shoulder..(I could feel the weight of his hand)...he wasn't 47 and ill..no..he was about 19 and healthy! We shared a few words..as frankly, I was just there to witness this remarkable happening and I didn't want to upset anything with mere words..other than I told him I loved him and would always ..he told me the same..and that he was "ok"...and that he would always look out for me. And then he was gone...poof....I came home and took out a container of family pictures...the first one I turned over was how "Jason" appeared to me in my car that day! Same shirt and pants...standing..looking over the cliff to the ocean with a sweet smile on his face...young and healthy!
We have since had a few conversations....nothing planned..but every once in awhile..I'll hear his voice.."Hi mom" and there he is..in my ethereal head-space, I guess one can call it. I'm a witness to this happening...I hear my soul talking to him..and his answers...all very brief, but enough for me to feel better about not having him in my earth-plane life any longer. I also reached out to him when my husband passed and asked him to take care of my sweet Perry...I heard back..."I've got him".....that's all I've needed to feel more peace in my heart.
None of this is easy, for sure...I never thought about the physical as well as the mental and emotional pain of losing loved ones before. Some days, hours, are worse than others ...but lately..I'm realizing and feeling the presence of lost loves..not only my husband's and son's, but close friends as well. I've never been a lucky person...no lottery has ever picked one number I had picked...but since their passing and being totally alone now...I'm finding that my life is working out better than I could have imagined or thought it could be....in many strange ways that I couldn't tell anyone..fearing they would just call me a nut...but I know me and also know that 'energy' cannot be destroyed.
So in this chaotic and troubled world we all find ourselves in now..I am also allowing goodness and happiness to enter into my broken heart and I am now beginning to 'feel' a healing and resolve. This is giving me a new outlook on what life I have left to live..to find joy and happiness in the gossamer magic of nothing really....just being 'me'...as my loved ones are still around me...I'm so fortunate, indeed.
I wish you the very best on your path...

So beautiful! Yes, my son's legacy is love.

Thank you.

Wow, this has inspired me.
I too question my beliefs, which at one time were extremely strong beliefs. I hate to say just how difficult it is to find the comfort I once did have in believing there is a God, a spiritual well being that was stronger than anything else, for me anyway. That has been shattered so many times. I have really tried to find my way back with only pain and fear leading my way. So very difficult to fight through all the ugly to get back what I pray is the true belief I once had for most of my life.
I have 4 children (grown) and they are leading their life's with the struggles they each face too. But, I have not lost the life of any child of mine. If I were to lose a child, I truly have no idea how I would navigate through that ordeal since I have yet found my way for myself and my health issues.

To me, I always pray "just to know" as I once just knew. If this makes any sense. Just to give birth and hold my newborn child was proof to me X 4. To hold my 2 grandbabies at their births was proof to me X 2. I never questioned.

I'm so sorry to see anyone confused but I do know, when you truly know within yourself, you do see and feel the beauty and the security genuinely within your soul without any questions. I desire to have this back but there is something that I must see or feel to lean one way or the other. I just can't decide, it has to be there. I have a difficult time finding the words to explain myself. I hope you and any others that are seeking guidance, finds what may be there. You finding the light and choosing to carry that light forward after all the darkness is beautiful to me. 🦋
Thank You for sharing this. You are inspirational and I seek this over everything in my search for the truth. My truth anyway.