When I was 26 I had a post partum hemorrage. When the EMT'S lifted me off my bed at home, I passed out and did not regain conciousness until I arrived at the hospital. I was given heart stimulus, and 5 pints of blood. When I regained consiousness, I told my husband how wonderful it was. I could not explain the feeling to him, except to say it was wonderful. Obviously, something happend. What! I don't know, only that it was wonderful. I also lost my daughter (she was 47) so I know your painl I hope my experience will bring you some joy.
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