Hi @jvivian,

I know and fully understand what you're going through. Chronic pain is a serious matter and you should be taken seriously. I also know what it's like to lose hope, years ago I suffered from the same battle, but beat through it one day at a time.

Are you taking any over the counter meds?

I too suffer from Psoriasis and other chronic illnesses. I find Aleve to be the best to relieve the inflammation the pain does to your body. Aleve will also help to relieve the swelling for the lymph nodes. Mine are also hard as a rock and not fun to deal with.

I would also get a Aloe plant, break off a branch and rub it on the affected areas of skin. This will help to sooth the areas of your body that feel like they're burning.

Have you admitted yourself to the hospital for thoughts of suicide? You're not alone in this fight. By admitting yourself because you have thoughts of wanting to die due to massive pain, you might have a better chance to see a pain specialist while they help you with the mental battle of chronic pain.

I find meditating helps to ease the mind and control my thoughts. Sleep doesn't seem to help since pain just wakes me up anyways.

Have you anyone you can speak with? A friend? A family member? Speaking to someone close to you is important to help release these thoughts that you have.

I hope this helps! You're not alone.

Regards,
Martin