Sorry you feel so blue. I had reached that point just before I was diagnosed with PMR and started treatment with prednisone. It was like a miracle for me. Suddenly I went from feeling hopeless despair to my old, pre PMR self. Yes, I understand there are side effects but so far I haven’t experienced any and am being proactive taking supplements as needed to help prevent bone loss, hair loss etc. There’s a new biologic out too for PMR. Maybe talk to your PCP about it if you don’t want to take pred. Best of luck, hang in there.