I know what you are going gthrough and I wish I didn't. But, I am almost out of it now my choice was to fight back with knowledge so I read all I could about PMR. That is how I came across this great forum. I still have bad days but a great man in my life, and a Kindle bursting at the seams, has helped so much. Keep thinking positive and all my best wishes for the future. Remember, there is an end to this.