First off, I agree and feel the same way. My diagnosis was at the end of February 2023, my surgery to remove my bone cancer was March 24th.
I was told that because of the type of cancer radiation and chemo was not an option. So now I'll have to be tested with MRIs, CT, X-rays for basically the rest of my life, they say 10 years if no reacurrance but at 62, why quibble.
I had to have my femur, knee replaced. I'm still recovering physically and trying emotionally and mentally.
During my lifetime I've had over 20 operations to put me back together, mostly because I lived my life with the Gee that looks like fun attitude. This is the first operation that has scared me, because there is a possibility it is never going to end.
I want to talk to somebody, anybody. They don't have to have answers, I just want someone to hold my hand and tell me they understand and really mean it.
My wife and family try, but I tell them I'm fine, not to worry. I've been telling them that my whole life and don't seem to be able to stop now. My whole life I've tried to protect them and I'm still doing it. But now, I need someone for me and it would be easier to talk to a complete stranger than my family.
My family is great, my wife is fantastic. I know that I married way outside of my league.
I am depressed and scared with what the future holds, but my biggest fear is what will happen to my wife, my family if the worse case happens.