Hello @rascal1

I agree with @parus, that this is not an easy time for you. I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter, especially as you were recovering from surgery. Her death certainly came at a time when you were most vulnerable.

I would encourage you to also join our discussion group on Grief and Loss. Even though your daughter died a couple of years ago, I feel this discussion group would still be helpful to you.

Here is the link, https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/loss-and-grief-how-are-you-doing/, Here you will meet others who have also experienced loss. Feel free to read what others have posted and then post as you are comfortable doing so.

Will you post again and let me know how you are doing?