Oh Janeen, you have been through so much! Staph infections are so stubborn. It is hard to remain optimistic when you have been depleted with infections and heavy medication.
You need solid answers.
I too understand why this surgery is so necessary, but the weight of your immediate and longer range future is heavy to consider right now.
You do need some 'straight talk' from others who have gone through this. You have proved yourself a fighter... even if it doesn't feel like that now.
Is there a physio clinic or 'Hip group' that is near you.. could be a treasure of info and support.
For your next appointment a list of questions would be helpful. You need to know a clear picture of what is ahead, what does recovery look like, what equipment will you need, what medications, how long will hospitalization be, etc.
Your doctors should answer all your questions; and the staff might be able to give you suggestions.
Knowledge is power!
After this source of infection is gone, you will regain your stamina and health... so needed for what may lie ahead.
One step at a time. The first big one is on Friday!
Take very best care as you prepare for the surgery. You are moving forward.
Let us know how you do and how your journey unfolds.
Sending you big hugs, and a bucket full of courage and prayers.

Last year I had my infected hip removed and an antibiotic spacer was inserted. I had severe bacterial infection that was resistant to all antibiotics
I had no trouble with the spacer I have had since Oct
I use a walker or wheelchair to get around
I am scheduled for another surgery to remove the spacer and put in another hip replacement
Hopefully no infection will occur.
I have had 10 surgeries over the last 20 years on that hip
Dr tells me this will be the last as my leg won’t take another and i will lose my leg . I am scared too
But keep exercising and think positive
I know it’s hard

Hi Janeen...I have been living without a left hip for 16 months now. It's called a Girdlestone Resection. I did reply to one of your posts on May 26th. I'm 70 years old. It wasn't easy those first few months, but it's been amazing as I continue to improve. I can get around with forearm crutches quite well and sometimes only one crutch. Otherwise I use a walker. I only used a wheelchair for the first few months. I would be happy to talk with you if you want to send a private message to me. If you are on Facebook, there is also a great forum you can join with very supportive people called "Hip Replacement Complication Forum". If you join that, you can read my story if you click on my name or I might have posted a story about my condition on this forum also. If you're young, I'm assuming you will be able to get stronger even sooner, but it all comes in baby steps. Wishing you the best of everything and reach out to me if you want to.....Cindy