I have frequent CT, MRI scans and ctDNA blood surveillance has been done since I entered the trial in October 2014. I have MRI done for abdomen and a low dose CT for lungs every 6 months. Any evidence of liver tumors is long gone.

For boosting immune system, exercise of walking/bike riding. My N.P. recommended a multivitamin and an additional 50mg Zinc.

Doing more than 12 cycles of Folfirinox is not easy. If someone is below age 70 and of robust physical condition and has been tolerating Folfirinox very well with minimal side effects, oncologists may suggest going beyond 12 cycles. I advocated for aggressive treatment with my oncologist before treatment ever started. The tumor board decided on palliative care with Gemzar. I was never told just how serious my situation was and why the Tumor Board decided on Gemzar. At the three month mark when it became evident Gemzar did not do anything, I looked my oncologist in the eyes and again pointed out my commitment to doing Folfirinox with as much as and as long as my body could tolerate it. I got no resistance to my request. Because it was assumed I would be going well beyond 12 cycles, my oncologist wanted to lessen the chance of developing peripheral neuropathy. This is why he did the dosing starting with six cycles of Folfirinox followed by six cycles of just 5-FU/Leucovorin as resting cycles. Despite only getting 5-FU, I continued to have significant shrinkage which surprised him. I never did Folfiri. I had such a good response on 5-FU alone, that I likely would have had equal or better with Folfiri but at increased side effects to tolerate. I have the BRCA2 mutation and it is known to respond well to oxaliplatin so that is why I ended up getting 24 cycles with it.

Many people are concerned with quality of life and why the oxaliplatin is stopped. My attitude was…you don’t have to worry about quality of life when you are dead from pancreatic cancer. It doesn’t matter . My focus was on surviving and figured if I ended up with permanent peripheral neuropathy, it would be my “new normal” I would adapt and deal with it. I’m a lot more productive being alive than dead. Every day working in a hospital I saw patients that endured horrific accidents yet were thriving and making the best of their “new normal”. They were my inspiration. I realized I didn’t have it so bad. I learned to practice gratitude and had no problems finding something to be grateful for every day which helped me deal with the adversity. I have always been optimistic since early childhood.

I did not have perinural invasion but did have 11/22 lymph nodes positive, and cellular morphology was poorly differentiated and high grade as well as portal vein invasion. The largest tumor that developed in the liver out of six sizable ones was 4.2x3.8cm and on the Hepatobiliary tree which made it inoperable and too risky to use any ablative techniques.

In summary, self advocacy is very important. I learned as much as I could to understand what I was dealing with. I concerned myself with what I could control. What I couldn’t control was the responsibility of my oncologist to deal with. I never sat in the examine room with that “deer-in-the-headlights look. I always engaged and wanted to make it clear I was going to be an active participant in the team effort.