Hi there @sally12345, I'm glad you are here on Mayo Connect. True, we may not be in a face-to-face environment, but there is still warmth and caring that comes through as support for one another. I do not know the specifics of your heart condition, but I think it is common for many people with heart issues to have both good and bad days. I know I did! There were times I felt like my old self and other times I could bare keep my eyes open during the day. One day fine, next day even doing laundry or tying my shoes I'd gasp for air. I hope the depression you carry is being addressed? That may have something to do with finding it difficult to look into the future. Are you aware of any support groups that meet in person in your area? Do you have a church or organization you attend that you could share with?