samy..........you are weighing your options well. Talk with your doctors about your feelings and also your existing medical conditions. My current oncologist knows I wasn't keen on the drugs but when so many side effects hit me with 3 out of 4 options.....he has been supportive and understanding that I don't want to live like that.
To put that in perspective a little - my husband was diagnosed with cancer 15 months ago At the time of diagnosis and until today, they know the cancer is in his lung and nearby lymph node and was found through a CT scan for his COPD. Here's the hard part.......they don't even know what type of cancer it is!! Yup, not consistent in any of the many tests, scans and the many genomic and pathological studies to be a certain cancer. They told him he would be dead in 12 months max. He's still here. In addition, the only treatment they can offer is chemo, but multiple types of chemo - because they don't know what kind of cancer it is. They took surgery, radiation, SBRT radiation and all targeted and immumotherapy off the table for him early on. They just offered every massive type of chemo they could find. He declined. He is using medical marijuana only and although he isn't well generally........he is not dead (thank goodness) and his tumor has shrunk over the last 12 months and his cancer activity in his blood is up, but only slightly. My point is this.........he could have done what not one but three doctors suggested and had all that chemo and the side effects months ago and been sick all this time. Perhaps the cancer would be gone, but perhaps not. Sometimes doctors can only offer what they have and what they know. But what they don't know........whether it will work for any specific individual. The ultimate decision is the patients and that's tough on us. For my husband, doing nothing and waiting has been the right decision .....so far....it might not be down the road, but for now, he wasn't willing to be ill the last year of his life (which is now, NOT the last year of his life). If you feel strongly that you don't want these drugs, do all you can to be well and make sure your doctors keep a close eye on you for recurrence.
Hugs!