I’m just nervous entering into this subject, it’s so very close to the pain I am dealing with. I have suffered my entire life with anxiety and depression, I tried therapy many times but it never seemed to help me enough, of course meds were always provided to keep me grounded but they had their own set of problems the way meds often work, they take away symptoms but often cause other ones. The past three years were awful like most people, I was so scared with covid and what it could do to our world but I got lung cancer in 2020 and really started to have a meltdown. I don’t know what happened to me, I had problems in my home with my brother, I have two siblings, an older brother and a younger sister. My brother hated me from the time I was a little girl and he tried to hurt me whenever he could get away with it. When I was seven and he was twelve we went to a afternoon movie and he was to look after me…he made me sit two seats away from him.. I noticed someone sitting next to me and suddenly this stranger was grabbing at me inappropriately and I told my brother…instead of helping me he said to leave him alone and he got something to eat…I managed to scare him away by getting loud and it worked. I have now told a story from my childhood that I only just remembered recently and I am truly devastated, I understand now why I have suffered all my life with fear and trust issues and just coping. I truly wish that I hadn’t remembered this nightmare because I’m unable to process it and family support isn’t there. I should mention I am a senior woman now and I don’t have a bad life with a good guy I’ve lived with for thirty years and four grandchildren. This recent problem has only caused me more stress and not sure what to do about it.