Bellsina , one thing has happened , of course , not ever over the emotional stress of knowing you have a cancer , yet after a few weeks , I feel pretty good dealing with this suspected monster . After many emotional break downs , I am ready to do the best I can .. I still have moments . Yet much much much less … for me once it sinks In I will fight for my life , not only physically yet emotionally .. as I said a while ago , what else is new , nothing been a cake walk in my life , like many other people .. that’s ok , I have done some very different things in my life .. I never seem to take a traditional route .. thanks again for letting me vent and for your feedback ..