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Anyone feel devasted about how you look & feel? And guilty too?
Breast Cancer | Last Active: May 30, 2023 | Replies (61)Comment receiving replies
On January 9th of this year I had a bilateral mastectomy. I tested positive for BRCA. I have yet to cry, but my mind set has certainly changed, sometimes in a good way and sometimes not. I do not like my husband seeing me, I know he doesn’t care and loves me very much, it’s me! I’m an introvert anyway, but it’s gotten worse. I guess I’m hiding from myself. Some days good some crappy. Everyone says well it saved your life and you have to look at the bright side. Please don’t say that to a breast cancer women. Just be there for them, love them and be patient, for this to will pass. I guess I’m having a cloudy day. “COPING “
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I agree with you wholeheartedly about those who say the same old things about cancer scars.
It does not help at all to say things like -- "Scars are a medal that you have won", or "It saved your life." Platitudes only tend to bring the scars to the forefront once again and the entire cancer experience is relived yet another time.
Best thing is not to say anything; buy us a lunch or a box of good chocolates! Be a friend.
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I am so sorry for your grief. I have been there and done that. I had a Radical Mastectomy when I was 35 and a simple mastectomy two years later. I have had doctors see my chest and say "we would never do that to a woman today". My reply "you can't fault success, I am 92 years old." I am sure your husband looks at you and thanks God you are still with him. You are the most important person in the World to him. If it is possible to have reconstruction, give it some serious thought. Look at the world and see how beautiful it is, and how lucky you are to be here. I believe there was a book titled "The Power of Positive Thinking". You are so much more, then your breasts. Give that husband a big kiss, imagine how much he needs you now, after all he has experienced when he thought he might lose you. Love him, and all your family who love you so much. God has been good to you. Life is wonderful, enjoy every day, the gift that was given to you. It comes around only once.
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