My heart goes out....I've experienced the same feeling of being a street addict when I try to explain the need for my seizure meds and when I need to take them~!! Now, if I know I'm going to the hospital...I've been known to take a days supply to cover myself for 24 hours. I'm 82 now..seizure free....but want to stay that way...and as you get to be my age you aren't concerned with the hospital's reaction~!!😕💞