in reply to @hopethereisnothing . Okay, I get it. Health anxiety is awful, and understand that you may be living somewhere where the medical care may be sub par. It can be stressful trying to get answers, and even more so when searching for answers on the internet, because one article leads to another, and pretty soon you are on information overload. I have been in this position myself while waiting to be referred to the correct specialist. It is exhausting, and here in the States, well, at least my doctor, hates it when I have told him that I have found a particular article in a medical journal that is relevant to my condition. I wish I had just the right answer for you. I was thinking about my last post, and that was : "don't borrow trouble." However, I do not mean to offend you in any way, shape or form. I validate your concerns and your fear. It is my understanding that pancreatic cancer can be hard to detect, and is sometimes caught at later stages. I had this happen to two very close friends who died as a result of pancreatic cancer. Both had symptoms, but by the time the cancer was revealed, it was too late for any relevant treatment other than comfort care.
My medical anxiety is similar to yours. Currently, while dealing with this mysterious liver/pancreatic duct issue, I now have a lump on my breast which will be further addressed via diagnostic testing next week. I have had so many breast biopsies that I have lost count. I had a lumpectomy many years ago that was done to remove a radial star and the biopsy did come back showing atypical cells. Every female relative on my mother's side of the family has had cancer, has died from breast cancer etc. However, even though I have no control over what is happening, I am still anxious as are you with your fear of pancreatic cancer. I am giving you a virtual "high 5" as I type this, okay. While I rarely get on the internet after 2000 PM, for some reason I am up late and decided to check my email and saw some notifications from the Mayo Clinic and stumbled upon your post. Synchronicity. Do you believe in that?
I have a friend who has helped me develop some positive mantras, and sometimes I have to say them twenty times at once. Check out Emil Coue on Wikipedia. "Everyday in every way, I am getting better and better." It helps me stay focused, and it might help with your anxiety presently. I actually made a sign for my entryway with these words so that I remember to say this "mantra." Again, I have no magic for you, but I am here to support you so that you do not feel so alone. Signing off now to get some long needed rest. Wherever you are, please stay safe and take care of yourself in the best way that you possibly can. There are many who suffer for no good reason other than just the luck of the draw. Try to make the best of each day, and know that you are not alone. You've got this.