Just hearing from you comforts me. My Mayo Clinic Connect friends have been so great. I do remember that for me life was great at 72. In only 4 months I will be 89. I can't imagine that. I do have one friend here in our community and we are going on a cruise later this month. The Great Lakes. I am apprehensive. My husband will not be with me and my grief is still great. My therapist calls it progressive grief because it was interrupted by my hip replacement surgery. That alone took about a year. After some lovely weather it has turned cold and grey again and that's how I feel. I have been in the house with no wish to leave. However if it doesn't rain today I must go and collect the mail. I need to see to the things I want to take with me and make a list of anything I need to buy. Have to visit TSA and see if the rules are changed. At least it gives me something to do. I am also not happy with my medical care. At my last visit the doctor asked about my back pain. I thought he was crazy. I do not and never have had back pain. But evidently there is an x-ray in my files that says I should have back pain. Something is definitely wrong there. So another thing on my to do list. I am going to prepare a letter for my next appointment with all the things I am unhappy about and the care I am not getting and see what kind of response I get. Apparently these days we have to be our own doctors. I also react inappropriately to medications. Always complain about it but get nowhere. Thanks to the internet I found a name for this. That will also go on the list.
At this point in my life I guess I need to accept who and what I am. I do have a good therapist. Right now she is busy with a family emergency but we will talk about this when things get better for her. Whatever time I have left will be alone and pretty much lonely. That's what I need to come to grips with.
Thanks for writing.