Thank you so much.
Your reply was very appreciated.
So much respect for going to war.
While the cowards hide behind desks.I’m 42 and take Valium and osscasional Xanax when I take the Xanax instead I feel better for a few hours then the next day I feel panicked and dysphoric to the point of I can’t do this anymore. ( just a thought I wouldn’t do anything)

Also I started on 30mg of Valium a day now it can go up to 10 once even 15. So that 30mg to 100mg plus of Valium is now down to 40mg a day.

Because I was so mentally sick and sectioned I was prescribed 90mg a day in the early 2000s

Ever since then without them I have Ben off them probably half of the 20 years.

But the world is an evil and this year feels extra dystopian.
I feel without them I can’t handle any interaction even a light conversation is to much.
So I’m just like you in a way.

I was homeless 2 years.
I no responsibility I slept in a tent in the woods for 5 months.
6 months outside on the floor under the court and outside the police station when I got moved from my tent. I left a small town for thr big city. Because then I did 6 months in the night shelter I had zero expectations and my family didn’t visit me once. I was clean then as well as I had no expectations. Then I got a GF from an abusive relationship her ex is doing life for murder and stabbed and abused her. Her next BF abused her and sexually abused her daughter and bullied her son. So even though my kids have never had any Socail services I got put though a mother baby unit tricked in by saying it was to support my partner. Because they dug up my homelessness and addiction.
I was defamed because we had a beautiful son 10 days before that.
It was either go or they get adopted! Her ex never got charged even with pictures amd 3 interviews with the kids the police have not enough evidence.

I just fell like sheer panic as I can’t have them when I have him so I can’t even enjoy it as Socail set me up.

So if I look out of place once sober wise my son could be adopted. Because my mum dad leave him here after checking we are sober.

I got no hope left.

Punished for another man’s crimes.

Thank you so much amd god bless from 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿