Hi @traceydoc, that is rough news to receive. I remember when my dad was given 6 months. He was with us for 13 months (13 was always his luck number). Your team can only give an estimate based on the predicted progression of disease and your current health status, but it is not an exact number.

What you do know is that time is limited. With that precious time, how might you focus on "what" "who" and "how" rather than "when"?

- How do you want the next months, weeks and days to unfold?
- Who do you want to spend time with?
- What is most important to you?

I am not fully conversant with your condition, but feel there is always hope. Have you spoken to your doctor about removal of the lung? People can survive with only one Lung. If the Tonsil cancer has not reoccurred, then it is just possible that removal my be an option.

As for your dark thoughts, well we all have them, it would seem that they can't be removed just like a cancer can. I was told a few days ago that my cancer has probably returned via the lymph nodes. Mine could not be removed but showed great signs after my rounds of radiation and chemo. Your concerns with your granddaughter's future are real but time may allow you to put things in place so you can feel a bit more comfortable. Kids can cope, it will be hard for her no doubt, but talk with her and let her know your feelings about her future, see what she has on her mind.

I hope you get some good news and are able to sort the problems so you can set your mind on the immediate problem.