Well, guess what? I took a bath and, of course, a shower and washed my hair and it felt wonderful! Thank you for telling me your story and I feel for you. It must be terrible to have such anxiety, your mind is overthinking itself. The brain is so powerful but not always in a good way. The seat and grab bars are a good thing for you. I have a small grab bar but I would prefer a steel one for the strength of it. You are lucky to have a hubby there with you. I live alone and my fat cat Lola is no help at all. : ) I just wish that I could make a habit of it. Even three times a week would be great and it is doable if I push myself and make it a joyful thing rather than a huge deal. Again, thanks so much for sharing your story with me and do take care. Scappa