Hi mayocid1...I totally understand where you're coming from - I'm still in a similar feeling as you. However, I am really hoping for surgery - but my surgeon does robotic (RAT) surgery which is much less invasive than being cut open. And he did tell me that it is a difficult surgery to get through (especially if you are cut open) which is why he is suggesting the robotic surgery. I don't know what stage you are at? but if you are in the early stage, read up and talk with peeps in this group. I am at stage 3b and I'm 77 years old...still hopeful I can have it cut out of me...I have learned a LOT (plus a lot of googling which sometimes upsets me so I don't do it quite as much any more) but I too am still full of questions, and since my treatment hasn't started yet, it makes for even more questions. That's why this group is so helpful! This whole cancer thing is a learning process until you have been through it. If you are really unsure, you might consider different docs? Hang in there, hopefully it will start to fall in place soon for you. And please keep us posted as to what you decide to do.
Sandy