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I am sorry @thisismarilynb that you are suffering as you do.
I take care of my 84 year old neighbor who is terribly depressed and spends her days sitting alone in her chair in front of the television and/or sleeping. As someone suggested, you are able to get on the internet, and being able to do this is a very good way to discover many new and exciting things. Google Earth or their arts and culture application is a wonderful distraction, and might pique your interest. While my friend/neighbor loves music, she no longer plays her keyboard or listens to music, unless it comes on the television and she happens to like whatever is playing. She recently watched Joni Mitchell on PBS and went nuts with joy. YouTube also has some very interesting videos and things of that nature. I recently bought her a package of 3D playing cards with cats on them and I have not seen her so excited about something in months. Because of a lifetime of bad habits and not taking care of herself she is now suffering from dementia, which makes taking care of her even more of a challenge.
I hope that you have some interests. Is there a senior center in your area? The one located near me offers many classes for seniors such as art, music, even dance. I have been to one of their "groups" and everyone was so friendly, as they were there to enjoy themselves and meet others like them who wanted to enrich their lives.
Again, I am very sorry that you suffer as you do.
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Thank you for your suggestions and comments. Yes there is a senior center where I live and, in fact, I live in a 55 plus community which also has groups. But here's the thing. I find it difficult and even impossible to go to them. I feel that there is this large neon sign on my head that says "see this person. She is alone because no one likes her." Of course my sane self knows this is not true, but that's the way I feel. My therapist told me that I was so traumatized by my abusive mother that I am now suffering from PTSD. Also I have no support group except all of you. I find it difficult to make friends. I can go out when necessary, to the grocery store, bank and library, but that's about it. I am still grieving for my husband and sometimes the pain is very dreadful. I just don't have the will to live any more.