It sounds like you need a rest and a chance to feel like you are really cured. Have you made any plans for the rest of your life that will bring you pleasure and happiness. It becomes so easy for us to get so involved in treatment that there is no other life. Do you remember what it was like to walk on the beach, or shop for a new pair of shoes, or have lunch with a very good friend ? Remember we go through this life only once (no matter how long) and we need to take advantage of every moment we are given. There is no magic door we can walk through and all of out worries are suddenly gone. You are now a BREAST CANCER SURVIVOR. There are no magic answers. Know in your heart, you have done all that you can and then live every day to the fullest. This is easy for me to say, since I am at the end of this cycle (92), but I have lived all those years that follow the Cancer Diagnosis. I was 36 when I was diagnosed.. It is never easy, but it is possible to have a happy, exciting, full life no matter how many years. Remember God is in charge, and you will not leave this life one day sooner than he decides. God bless you and keep you in his tender care.
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