Thank you for your kind words. After a long marriage such as ours, I no longer feel complete. The grieving is getting better but it will never end. I pray for the day I can join him. Not at all interested in "dating sites." I was only with one man in my lifetime and he was my heart and soul. No one can ever replace him. Right now I am in a lonely and solitary place. However I am stepping way out of my comfort zone and going on a cruise at the end of May. My plan is to try and stay upbeat, but it will be hard because my husband and I cruised a lot and it is hard to imagine being on a ship without him. Suicide is not the answer so I must try and keep going until it is my time.