I desperately need help and don't know where or how to find it.

I am in my 7th decade of life and am finding it increasingly difficult to do anything because though I'm physically healthy, I am mentally and financially a wreck. I've had a lot of therapy over the years, and do now to the extent Medicare and Medicaid allow, have seen numerous psychiatrists, NP's, social workers and case workers, and have been put on all sorts of meds in the past few years - and even tried TMS twice - but now I'm told that I have treatment resistant depression and this coupled with ceaseless anxiety, PTSD, and Insomnia plus the abject poverty I am in now which I never expected, prepared for or anticipated, puts me in a state of perpetual panic attacks that have almost completely disabled me. I spent the past year on Klonopin (in addition to Antidepressant meds) and certainly felt a lot calmer with them but Doctors kept telling me that as an advancing age Senior with Osteoporosis I absolutely HAD to get off them and I did - 3 months ago - but now my life is an absolute hell. I live in NYC so unfortunately can't go for treatment at Mayo but no one here can help me and I am all alone and burnt out from my persistent Major Depression and Anxiety and can no longer take the stress of constantly having to fight and struggle for everything on my own. I would like to make my Final Exit but don't yet have the courage to do so.

Does anyone reading this have any ideas on what, if anything, I can do? I would like to survive but am quickly running out of strength and hope so can really use the insights and ideas of others here.

Your responses will be greatly appreciated!