@boonay You certainly sound angry and totally defeated by all that’s happened to you. I am so sorry. If you can, let go of your anger and feelings of resentment. You will do better at healing your body, if your mind is at peace. I know, I was the same way. I was so upset and angry at the autoimmune disease that, I felt, had ruined my life. But I had good doctors and and a therapist who helped me rid myself of anger and depression.
You really need to put yourself in the hands of a good doctor and work with them to get well. You could try calling a medical center or university hospital and ask for a recommendation of a doctor who helps with mold toxicity.
You can always let out your frustrations here—we’ll understand.
Will you try calling a hospital to find a doctor?
Please stay in touch. I worry about you