I agree 100% with your thought about us taking care of ourselves..well, ourselves, and not depending as much as I thought I/we could on the medical community to actually help. I still like to think they do care but.....laughs...we do need to look out for #1. I have read the novellas that come with the meds and....I actually pointed out to the latest Dr. (the one who prescribed the zoloft) my concerns while we were still in the office and....I don't want to sound too much like debbie downer here.... he seemed to listen but still wrote the script for that anyway....I have learned to make forward motion and to his credit..that Dr...when I did reach out to him (after the zoloft experiment went sideways) did agree that I should stop taking it and that we could discuss the issue when I see him again. That visit is coming up here at the end of this month....Which brings me back to the cbd oil and...I wasn't even going to mention that (Medical Marijuana) because I live in a state that still thinks that particular plant is....well, not a medical (or recreational) option AT ALL. When I bring it up to every single Dr. here in this state their auto response is that it is illegal and the conversation stops. They just will not even talk about the potential benefits that amazing plant can offer. I'll freely admit back in the day I used that plant for recreation and now that I live in a body that just can't seem to cope with the day to day of this post accident life. I firmly believe that it could help me......Question is....How/who ..in a medical sense..can I find to talk about using that plant?? Is that something I can discuss here on this site without real fear of being found out...? That sound super paranoid but..laughs welcome to life in my world. I'd even be willing to move to the state below me (where it IS a medical option..and a recreational one, as well) but that would mean finding a Dr. there that would be willing to take me on as a patient..while I am still here in this state. The research I have done leads me to believe that I'd have to establish residency there (which will take at least a year) before I even become eligible for the Medical Marijuana program. Without a known Dr. there..that is a risk I am just not willing to take. I'm not over the moon about being where I am, now, but moving to another state only to find out I can't get on a Medical Marijuana program there.....just not enough strength left in me for another pointless move. If that makes any sense? I plan on bringing both the cbd oil and Medical Marijuana up to this new Dr. the next visit but I have to be careful. Once I get THAT label..I'm sure I'll never even be able to discuss that plant..much less use it....legally...I appreciate any/all the help you can give me...laughs even if it is just to read my frustrated messages....I certainly appreciate as well the strength it takes to just get out of bed every day and I sincerely thank you for offering support. There has to be a forum or whatever it may be called here on this site to find out what my options are as far as finding a valid source for cbd oil and one to help me find a Dr. in a state close to me that will at least see me and listen to my hopes for what Medical Marijuana can give me?? Alright enough for now....Thanks again for responding and..just so it's said....you take care of you...!!