Fear of recurrence. I have lived with those words for the last 30 years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had a mastectomy. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and had that removed. Now I am diagnosed with anal cancer. I know what those three words mean. No one is more grateful than I am that these scans exist. It’s difficult to measure your life in three month increments. It’s always there. It’s difficult to put it to the side and enjoy the life we have, but what choice do we have?