I may be new to cancer but you shouldn’t ever be ashamed specially of that. My god, your given a diagnosis of a terrible disease and they don’t give you a hand book at the same time on how to deal, handle, react, feel, answer, dress, talk, explain and on and on the never ending things that come with a cancer diagnosis. Like answering questions from your 10 year old grandson when he asks “Nana will you die before Christmas?” to question like “Are you going with cremation and a small wake or a whole funeral?” So please don’t feel ashamed for asking, questioning, wondering about anything when your diagnosis, it’s a hurricane of emotions with a roller coaster of information topped off with a earthquake of people wanting and needing knowledge. I look at it like this “Cancer is like a designer outfit, it’s one of a kind, but it wears on everyone differently!” Ask as much as you want, knowledge is power!