Thank you. I am gearing up for my appointment tomorrow with my PCP. I have decided not to be confrontive with him at all because I know it will not make any difference. The last time I saw him, I told him that I wanted to feel as if I mattered. Mattered to him, to Sutter etc. That's when he asked if I wanted a new doctor. Well, I will find one soon. Tomorrow I will just sit there like he does and let him talk for a change. I am curious what the hematologist had to say about the blood disorder.
On another note, I can feel that I am approaching some kind of new depressive state, probably because my dog died one year ago on March 2. But, I just heard from the shelter that they need me to foster a dog, so that would be really great for me, as I miss having the "company."
There are some days, more recently, when I feel like giving up, or not continuing with my art or weight lifting, but I force myself because I will be left without any fortitude.
This forum gives me so much hope, I cannot even explain it clearly enough, Before I discovered this patient portal I felt so alone, now I do not.