I was reading about your frustration with Ativan and related. I’ve been on and off twice in over twenty years. I still take them one per day but it’s so hard to stay on this dosage and every time I start reducing something seems to come along and throw me off again. My own guess is that the med itself is causing us to go back to it and my reason is that the meds help a lot and maybe they make us weaker to fight back. I’m basically speaking for myself and I know how quick it helps me feel better. When my stress goes up I lack the determination to stay away from them, there’s just too much stress already it doesn’t leave much room for more