I am so sorry for your loss…My mil and my mom and you are near in age and experience. She lost her husband years ago, took care of her son who had a stroke when younger who recently passed. My dad passed recently and my mom is by herself. We are very attuned to my mil struggle at the time. We are trying to keep in touch 3x a day because she is by herself. My mom is coping by keeping herself busy. She goes to church, had hobbies that keep her preoccupied. It is another stage. We all are grieving and trying to move forward or at least not stand too still. Covid makes it more of a challenge. its good to have support groups. Perhaps a bereavement group. With all this, what Im trying to say is it will get better. It may take time. Its normal to grieve in your own way, in your own time. Share it. I miss my dad. God was gentle in how he took him. My dad called my name twice and when I saw him he opened his eyes, called my name and smile. It was a sweet gentle smile. He said I love you and goodbye all at the same time. He then went unconscious. I was able to say I love you so much and I left nothing unsaid. Its good to be in touch with your feelings. To feel them. Finding ways to deal with the loss in your own way. I think everyone’s experience is universal but also very personal. I believe I will see him again one day. So, in that I have peace. I hope you have peace. I will be thinking of you and keep you in my prayers tonight @thisismarilynb

Just a thought…
I created a corner that is a memorial - for my dad. I have his picture, lantern, cross, angel with faux candles that are on a timer. Every time I pass it I think of my dad. It helps me to keep him in my mind every day in a positive way.