Today - bear hugged sister to a standing position to get her into wheelchair - bear hugged her out of wheelchair to get her into car - same out of car, into chair, our of chair on leaving - to go see her oncologist who she was determined to impress so she would authorize continued chemo.

Heartbreaking discussion with oncologist - she noted my sister's condition was not suitable for additional chemo, but would draw blood tomorrow to make sure there was nothing missed. She asked how much time was being spent in bed - my sister was evasive, so I reluctantly provided the answer - maybe 90-95%. The oncologist was looking for a number - as doctors do. In this case the number was 75% or more in bed constituted grounds for not continuing.

The oncologist was so very kind - she put her arm around her and said there was nothing you have done wrong - you are fighting hard and we know that - your body is simply was not allowing it. That, based on scans and thoracentesis, that although there may no longer be cancer in the pancreas there was cancer in many other places. My sister asked how much time and she answered, given the decline in the last two weeks, perhaps about that same amount of time, but that it was very difficult to know. Further discussion related to how would it end. Since hospice was already engaged, the doctor said with more and more sleep, but it would be pain free.

More later.