I would like to tell everyone my problem. I had a nervous breakdown about a month ago. I have been on .5 /.75 mg of Klonopin for about a year and a half. My mother passed away unexpectedly in May and I did not grieve well. I was an only child and I took it really hard, but didn't process it. So when the holidays came around I was having panic attacks left and right and the went to the ER 6 times!! Each time they gave me an Ativan .5 and sent me on my way after good bloodwork. Fast forward 2 weeks and I start a Partial Hospitalization Program, and I get put on Zoloft 100MG and Seroquel 50MG. I was not eating or sleeping, so I have to say that these meds helped with that. However, through this process, the Psychiatrist asks me what I am taking in Klonopin. I told him I was taking .5 mg a day and sometimes may need .75 depending on panic attacks. He asked me how many pills I had, and I told him that I had 5 left, and he told me to cut them in half and I was done. My PCP who originally put me on 2 mg a day sent me to this Psychiatrist, so I am freaking completely out. I slowly tapered myself from 2 MG down to .5 in about 6-7 months. I luckily found 5 more pills that I had put back in my med cabinet months ago. So, I tell them I am not comfortable with the speed of this taper and they act like I am a bad guy for not trusting them. They are a non-Benzo facility at this Psych hospital. All this, and I am 46 with 2 kids, a great job, but I have not been to work (fmla) for the past 5 weeks due to uncontrollable anxiety. I have called a friend of mine that is a Nurse Practitioner that is willing to taper me down slowly, but I am worried that the Psych Hospital will get upset if I go outside of them or my regular PCP to get a feasible controlled slow taper. Plus, I do not want to be looked at as a Dr. Shopper or pill head. I just want to stop taking this medication slowly, so I don't have uncontrollable side effects or dreadful rebound anxiety. Any suggestions?