I will have to look at the message marked private! I hope I got it! I'm glad that I can be a little bit of help for you right now. It doesn't seem like a lot of people respond to post but that might be because we're in limbo right now. It's nice when someone reaches out and can give some words of encouragement and support. A lot of things in your head can make you feel certain ways. I know for a fact that this can happen because I've been doing it to myself. Today was the first day I felt some I decent, but I'm having a hard time breathing also. Like I can't take a deep breath without it feeling like somebody whacked me in my rib cage. Even if it is in other organs, they're going to start chemo right away and that goes throughout your whole entire body attacking the cancer cells, and sometimes they have to use that in combination with radiation and other things. Try to think about good things and try to watch some positive things, like go watch Anita Moorijani NDE! And go watch Jeff Olson's NDE, he lost his wife and his newborn son in a horrific car accident and he left his body too and he saw his wife in the middle of the air and she said you have to go back and take care of our other son. There was much more to the story than that but it is very touching and moving and a doctor in the ER saw his wife lingering over him and she looked at this ER doctor like thank you for helping him thank you for saving his life. Miracles happen every day! Every single day. The whole thing with being human is that we feel like we're going to miss out but one thing with people that have had ndes they realize that everything is the way it was always supposed to be, that there is no mistake. Now that's hard for me to get my head around too because I'm terrified! But I think that my spirituality in this regard, and years of reading NDEs really is helping me. I am not a Bible thumper, I don't believe in any set religion. I was also raise Catholic and even made to go to a Catholic school! Oh the horrors!! I believe that we are ALL eternal, spiritual beings. Each and everyone of us. When you're having these really bad times, try to go watch something or read something that is going to make you feel better because it will help!!! I I'm going to go see if that private message worked. That would be nice if that did work. And I hope you sleep good tonight!

Angela