Hi Angela - my name is Maureen. I live south of Detroit and about a half hour away from Ann Arbor University of Michigan Hospital where I’m being seen. There’s only a few people who know what I’m going through and my husband is glass half full and I’m glass half empty - he tries to keep things positive. I’m glad in a way but sometimes I feel like he doesn’t know what it’s like to feel like I’ve been handed a death sentence. Sometimes I get so uptight , especially in the evening that I jump in the car and just ride around. We are not abnormal to be so upset. When I got my MRI last week I was in a women’s changing room getting into gown met two other women. One appeared to be about 50 and said she’s been dealing with breast cancer for several years. She was crying because of claustrophobia and being inside of MRI. The other lady was probably in her 70’s and also crying. She lost her husband last year and had cancer in her sinuses. I felt so bad for them! As for my symptoms- ever since the beginning of this past summer I’ve had sharp pains off and on in one ear. The pain also caused my jaw to feel sore. I thought maybe it could be a dental problem so saw dentist and no issues. Then went to ENT dr and no issues with ear. Went to primary dr and he thought I might have a pinched nerve so ordered a car scan of my neck. At the last minute he said by the way let’s get a lung screen too since I’m a smoker. So I did both the same day. Mass on lung 😞. I’m usually an information junkie and want to read about what I’m dealing with - but this is too much. The stats are not good at all. So I try to avoid the internet. And I still haven’t read my brain MRI results. I’m so scared that I’ve asked my dr to tell my husband the diagnosis after all my tests are done - I can’t bear to hear it. They told me they will know the results of biopsy right when they are done doing it. The pathologist will be in the surgery room. I don’t want to know that day either. I don’t handle general anesthesia well and don’t want to wake up to dreadful news. I’m such a baby!