All the feelings you have are so understandable!! Of course you wouldn't want the man you love moving on, but where the HELL are you planning on going? There is so much they can do now for all cancers, including lung and that's where we both have to think positive!!! I am not married. My heart is open to it, but I've been so busy the last 5 years with my granddaughter that I don't have time. I am very content with myself, but at this time I wish I had someone so count yourself lucky, at least you have him for support. I have my mom, my son who lives with me as well and close friends, and extended family. You are so lucky he accepted the girls as his own, that right there tells you he is a good man and human being!!
I am also not looking forward to my PET scan! I am not aware of any research hospitals, although I am sure there is some in this large metro area. It is something I will look into after hearing about this from you. I never thought about that!
When I got colon cancer, they caught it right in time. They said that if I waited 6 more months, the outcome wouldn't have been good. I had a complete proctocolectomy (removal of entire large intestine) I had to have a bag for 3 months, then they hook your small intestine to a pouch inside and that acts like a rectum. It's amazing what they did with that. Noone would ever known I don't have a large intestine, etc. They also did a complete hysterectomy at the time bc they said I would have cancer of my uterus by the time I was 50 if I didn't bc of the lynch syndrome. It never broke through colon wall so I never had to have radiation or chemo. Just been watched like a hawk for years with nothing remarkable until this! I just saw my cancer doctor in November and he ran the blood work and it was all normal. Now it doesn't check for cancer, but there are certain things that should change. I'm at a loss! It's so weird! I am thinking of you also! I know how scared you are!!! Out Pet scans are a day apart, but at least you are seeing you doctor right away! Mine is out of the office for a week following the Pet scan. I am going to go through the ceiling! I scheduled a night at the Waterpark with my granddaughter on Sunday bc she doesn't have school Monday! I am hoping the results won't even be posted until Mon or Tues so I can enjoy myself with her!!! I can't look! Thinking of you!!! Stay Strong!!