I am also here for you! And I completely understand why you don't want to tell your girls until you get all the information, it's just that I can't imagine how hard it is not to have that love and support you need from them right now and to know all this in your own head and not be able to just share it all with them. Hang in there. Think positive. And I'll try to do the same! Maybe we can try to give each other some faith!!!