I live in Wisconsin. I go through Aurora which seems to be pretty good. I have an excellent oncologist already which I just saw November 17th. All my tests were normal. Now blood tests can't check for cancer but there are certain indicators on those tests and they went over the results again with me today and they said this is just perplexing cuz they were all normal. I have a pet scan on Friday I moved it up by going to a different hospital but I still don't see the pulmonary doctor until a week and a half after that so I'll be driving myself crazy. And then he'll schedule the broncoscopy. I understand your fear! I am terrified I can't even keep it together in the morning. I look at my granddaughter's cute little face when I'm taking her to school, and I think of what she's going through already. It's just too much. There's so much they can do though now, even in the last 3 years lung cancer treatments have come so far. So don't feel hopeless, and you may want to tell you're grown girls, they might want to be there to support you right now. It's got to be so hard keeping this all in! I don't know how you're doing that. Sometimes it's just better to say something and have that extra love and compassion from the people that care about you the most. And please have hope, and not only hope have faith because hope walks through the fire, faith leaps over it.