I understand what you’re feeling. I was hoping to see the end of this disease with surgery in October. This after 8 chemo treatments and 15 radiation treatments. The PET scan showed spots on my hip bone and in my lungs. The bone biopsy showed metastatic cancer in my hip. Surgery was canceled and now I’m on chemotherapy and radiation treatment again. This time to control the disease.
Each time I spoke to my oncologists they expressed hope, never promises. I was somewhat prepared for bad news but not completely. Throughout this journey my family has been there for me, at times so much so that I cried for them. The one Rock that I have never stopped leaning on is my God who has promised to never leave the me. I know He is always there for I feel His presence in the love of my friends and family. I also receive His Word for me in study and prayer.
I don’t know what the future holds. I didn’t know even before my diagnosis. I live in trust that I am not alone and that if it is God’s will I will outlast this awful disease.
I’m praying for you that you have the support and strength you need to get through this. I keep an eye on this site and I am part of your background support group. God bless you.